Long time... no Blog

I'm sorry.

I know In am falling way short with this blog. Thing is, I am super uncomfortable and unfocused these days I just cant put myself to blog.

However, Here I am :)

UPDATE:: I am 32 weeks pregnant tomorrow ( going on what feels like 45) I get to schedule my c- section sometime this month.... for June, so I will finally have an exact eviction date for my lil' lady! ** unless she comes early which I wont mind so long as its not TOO early**

I am only working 25 hours per week now at work due to horrible back problems and a torn abdominal wall. sucky. I really don't know how much longer I will be able to work at all, coming in today with my back killing me and on less than 5 hours of very interrupted sleep was awful! My dr. also has me doing physical therapy twice a week as well as massage therapy. I have only had one apt. so far and have my first massage in 2 days so we shall see how it goes!

I had my baby shower on Sat. it was AMAZING!! I will post pictures as soon as I see any of them ( my friend took a bunch) I was having nightmares all week leading up to it thinking of showing up to only 3 people being there and all this work put in by my 2 good friends that threw it. It wasn't like that at all though, there were like maybe 20 women there and great food and wonderful gifts. I felt SO loved!!! Best day ever!!

So here's hoping these last 7 weeks before Jaida is born are uneventful and pain free... HA! .... but I can hope!

slow growing

So my son Jordon.....

He does not grow.

I mean really, I was just noticing that the outfit he wore for Easter this year was worn once before and although I don't know exactly how old he is in the first picture I am going to guess about 5. Then he wore the same shirt(s) this past weekend at age 8 ALMOST 9.

See for yourself:




 and now::




clearly to me he looks different in the face but how the heck is his upper body still the same size LOL. His legs are growing longer, and his feet are getting bigger... but his shirts from years ago are all still fitting.

One thing I think is for sure.... Jordon will probably not be very tall.

Hello

Hello Blog.

I miss you.

Someday I will be back to update you with pictures and stories.

For now though...... I've got nuthin'

It's official

Pregnancy is NOT fun anymore :(

Not that I ever thought it was a good time being pregnant. I hate to be the whiny type but seriously this pregnancy thing is not as easy as some people make it look haha.

I feel so guilty for being uncomfortable or in pain.

I feel like I am failing at my job and at home because I cannot give 100% anymore. Not only do I have this huge baby to carry around but she is killing my back and now my tear in my abdomen is getting worse and causing pain too. BOOOO HOOOO.

It is such a blessing to be pregnant and I am so thankful that I will have this amazing baby to love and care for, but I just wanted to vent that I feel useless right now.

Next week I am starting to work part time because I can no longer sit stand or walk for more than 5 consecutive hours without excruciating pain. However to people on the outside looking in I know it looks like I am just making an excuse to sit around and do nothing.

Why do I feel guilty. That is unfair. So what if people don't understand.... so what. I am doing what is best for me and my unborn child.